I was
emailed some sides to be familiar with. First off, they were for a character
whose description read “in his 20s/30s”, which was a bit flattering and then I
realized my headshots were ten years old. And then it led me to realize I’ve
lost a little weight, which further led me to think that it was time to update
my headshot.
Anyways,
one of the sides was a monologue and the other was a scene. And I firmly
committed to the idea of memorizing the monologue because I had enough time to
prepare. And then I got a flare-up of gout. Now I know you don’t need your feet
to memorize shit, but I was too angry, depressed and uncomfortable to memorize,
so there.
I biked
to THE CHURCH on a Saturday morning. I was relatively stress-free as I waited
to go in. I went in and one of the three guys behind the table asked me to do
the monologue. And then after that, he asked me to do it again, but less
performed and as if I were coming up with the descriptions my character was
saying on the spot.
After
that, he said there was no need for them to see me perform the other side and
he thanked me. He smiled as he did so, and he sounded sincere, but that little
bugaboo inside my head whispered, “Failure!” to me as I left.
So I
shut it up with a doughnut and coffee afterwards.
Three
days later, I got the rejection email.
